sunburn?
And perhaps another pound or so. Hmm. Felt like I ate too much today. That, combined with my lack of exercise, worries me. Lila doesn't seem to mind. Quite the contrary. Our opinions of one another have a satisfyingly happy, interested vibe. This is good.
The beach was fun though I had some sort of salt-shock when I went completely into the water. Got to swim around, played some watery football, et cetera. Jose's alter-ego is now "The Money." You mustn't think Money Penny from 007, however. No no. I always think... A young, Cuban Benjamin Franklin.
I didn't go to work as planned. I called up, Brad was there, Dave wasn't, hung up, decided that it would be a waste of time showing up. Brad would just send me home. I really hate that man and thus do not trust him. I will not disclose my personal matters with him, ergo the reasons why I need more shifts/money because he is an unmannered and dispassionate fiend. I cannot expect any help from him. Dave's another matter entirely. He's humorous and friendly in a take-no-shit kind of way. Brutish, at times, but charming.
Tomorrow will be a day of heat, loathing, and then... passion? I hope. Working with Uncle Mickey again this weekend. With luck Tom might be withdrawn again, passing around his little broken world as he has been, assigning us stupid, simple tasks. Working for profit according to time spent working, not profit according to how hard you work or how well. What a life.
Children privileged with endless wealth pouring from their undoubtedly world-tied parents sicken me.
As the sun goes down, so shall my forthcoming pain (brought on by the sunburn of today no doubt) subside, and daytime worries ease away, and eventually I may be able to see Lila. I will be excited. Even to speak with her, face to face, is a bountiful experience. We are so open and free with each other.
I just want to stop all procrastination and laziness. Make songs, write stories, and share my love of life (whatever form it comes in; don't be tricked by my some times pessimistic tone herein) with Lila and everyone else.